Wishing

i wish. i could wash my brain..
forget my traumatic past..

i wish. i'm numb.
couldn't feel anything..
escape from my tortured soul..

i wish. i'm not me.
living someonelse's life.
run from this agony inside my heart.

i wish...
but i won't.
cause it will wash away all the memories i have with you.
my friends.
the one who help me out from my pathetic live.

i wish..
but i won't..
i won't give up all my battle..
i won't lose..
i'm curing..

i wish..